Breathe

When everything is bad.
When there's nobody to trust.
When the pressure starts to build.
When your friends turn their back.
When you see no way out.
When you want to quit.
When nothings fair.
When you're losing.
When you want to run away.

just stop...
close your eyes...
and breathe.

The truth

The truth is that people are afraid of the truth. The truth is that speaking your mind is looked down upon. The truth is that there is only one ultimate truth and it belongs to you. Let me see who my truth offends.

The truth is I hate cops
The truth is im anti-government
The truth is I think public educational institutions are a form of programming
The truth is I love beautiful women, ALL beautiful women
The truth is I think there is a necessary violence even though I wish 4 peace
The truth is im an MC that wishes "rap" would die
The truth is you will never be better than me
The truth is I don't need your approval
The truth is that my energy plus my authority issues does not make me ADD
The truth is that I am the truth

True story

Idk.

Realize through real eyes they rely on real lies.

Top 10 songs of all time (not in order)

1. Redemption Song- Bob Marley
2. Smooth Operator- Sade
3. Project Windows- Nas
4. Big Poppa/ Juicy- Notorious B.I.G
5. Str8 up Menace- MC Eiht
6. Feel me flow- Naughty by Nature
7. Computer Love- Roger and Zapp
8. Not just knee deep- George Clinton
9. Im kissing you- Des'ree
10. ATLiens- Outkast

"Mortal Hands" (original song lyrics)

I hear the chords again/ I explore the sands/ of the foreign lands/ where my spiritual war began/ im out here tryna box the devil wit my mortal hands/ and be the man that my lord demands/ mr. reporter man/ I hope you get a good look at what we doin/ I call it a revelation/ you call it a revolution/ I fall into meditation/ and follow with evolution/ empowered by education/ the hour of retribution/ is now/ and im executin'/ the cowards who kept abusin/ the message/ my elevation's allowing my resolution/ we're hollow from seperation/ I offer the medication/ 2morrow's a better day/ but it's hard 2 not get impatient...

The Reading

I recently gave myself a tarot reading after asking the universe "whats my life about?" and what the cards told me was extremely powerful. It read as such.

1st card- me- The temperance card (patience). This card when pulled in this position tells me that I must practice patience along my journey and to keep my faith until the end.

2nd card- what surrounds me- 8 0f wands (signals). This card in this position is just telling me to be aware of the signs around me. The universe will reveal all as long as im watching.

3rd card- what holds me back- 3 of pentacles (work). This card in this position is telling me that there is an imbalance in my work schedule. Either I work 2 hard on something that I dont enjoy or I dont work hard enough and it effects my outlook on myself.

4th card- my foundation- The Emperor (achievement). This card tells me that I have invested my energy into personal success inward and outward and that I am capable of creating and doing the the things I want.

5th card- whats behind me- King of pentacles (pragmatisism). This card is telling me that the ability 2 interact and blend with other people in my past will be important concerning new relationships in the near future. The ability to be political will not always be a bad thing.

6th card- what crowns me- The World (culmination). This card tells me to follow the divine guide and to let my vision evolve as my existence evolves. Grow with the world around me.

7th card- whats ahead of me- Ace of cups (Love). This card in this position is telling me that a new love or new feeling of love will enter my life in the near future wether it be in a new or existing relationship.

8th card- how I should present myself- High Priestess (intuition). The high priestess is telling me that I should be more receptive to intuitive information. It says i am considerate and should learn to follow intuition over logic at times.

9th card- how others view me- King of cups. This card in this position means that im viewed by those around me as an advisor or councelor. I listen and respond with helpful and creative advice. This card is also associated with healers and artists.

10th card- fears and hopes- 7 0f swords (opposition). This card tells me that I fear I may be my own worst enemy and that I fear I may be too stuck in my old ways to evolve or grow into something better. I must face myself and put my inner demons to rest.

and these 10 cards pulled and placed in the order they were leads me to this, the final card that represents what the other 10 will eventually come to mean to my existence...

11th card- my ultimate outcome- Ace of swords (triumph). This card tells me that I will succeed and accomplish the things that I want in life universally. I will not lose!!!

We read and gather what we want from faith and mysticism but all I know is that after this reading I was left with a strong feeling of hope for the future. I hope that wherever you search for it, you find your source of strength and hope to.

Through the looking Glass (lyrics)

Take a walk inside the looking glass/ abstract images floodin'/ n all of a sudden/ nuthins the same as it was becuase it wasn't/ change of direction/ time's tangled in sections/ nuthin makes sense and u feel the tension/ so strange the connection/ life in the parallel/ power of ur perception is compromised/ no longer know where the bottom lies/ or whats beyond the skies/ ur eyes r buring as u stare deep into the mist/ slowly realizing the world that u love doesn't exist/ overwhelmed by the feeling while facin these new sensations/ imagination replaces ur logic/ no compensation/ what's taken is equal to what was given/ and though it's different/ the outer limits of livin exist in a mental prison/ envision the end/ now picture the beginning/ vivid descriptions but still providing no comprehendin/ wish 4 the future but say a prayer 4 the past/ forward is backwards when ur inside of the looking glass

What's it all for?

I often imagine myself with all the wealth, fame and luxuries in life that most ordinary people seek. Unlimited money, extravagent vacations, no worries at all. These types of fantasys have been perpetuated by a never ending stream of motion pictures, music videos and celebrity media. Then reality hits me. When did the pursuit of happiness become the pursuit of material possesion. Whatever happened to the buddihst ideals of self enlightenment and traveling inward to find peace. When people say that you take nothing with you from this life to the next I only partially agree. We cannot take anything material with us when we transcend. No Bentleys, mansions or 1000 dollar outfits will be accompanying us on our travel in to our next stage of conciousness. We will however, keep with us the residual energy of how we spent our time in this life. Everyday I see people who are utterly miserable because they feel like they need more to own. People all around the world do terrible, evil things to gain that which they can only possess for a small time. Lives are ruined and souls are sold in the ever so human search for fortune. It is in times like this when I am reminded that fortune is not a measure of collections but a mental state of appreciation for what we are and what we can accomplish simply by harnessing the positive energy around us. Why would I choose to spend the short time I have in this existence searching for things that im told i need instead of appreciating that which I already have and trusting in the universe's circular energy to create more for me? My promise to myself is this, the only things that I want when I leave this life is the love of the people I took the journey with and one last human smile on my face that I can be buried with. A simple dream of a simple man. On my final day when they ask what my smile was for, you can tell them that it was because i had a secret. Ill tell you what it is in the next life.

THE DAY THE SCREAMING STOPS (by request)

This world will never be free until we make it.
Ministers of war on bloody pulpits preach hatred.
Instruments of destruction in mass production. Constant.
Words of peaceful wisdom get disregarded as nonsense.
Nuclear nightmares and automatic anxiety.
Heat seeking horror in our cyanide society.
Death is dealt but realize the house always wins.
In this game of sin that’s built on the backs of my fallen friends.
The thirst for blood will drown us all. The earth is steaming hot.
Will it be peace or emptiness we find the day the screaming stops.

A Beautiful Mind

For the last 2-3 years I have been following the teachings of a man named David Icke. David Icke has been labled many things including prophet, maniac, seer, liar, wiseman and hoaxist but I prefer the term "progressive thinker". Icke's teachings revolve around the theory of a designed manipulation of the masses through media, misinformation, forced beliefs, hidden truths, propaganda and subliminal messages as well as physical mutation caused by drugs, alcohal, enviromental changes and the genetic alterations of most name brand, shelf-bought foods and ingested chemicals (Sodium fluoride, Aspartame, etc.). His theory dictates that this manipulation began during the dawn of "civilized" man with the babylonians being taught architecture, astrology, astronomy, mathmatics, record keeping and agriculture by a group of reptilian out worlders named the Annunaki. This theory was later given scientific merit when a scientist named Zacariah Sitchen began translating a set of stone tablets dated back to ancient Sumeria that told a similar story. Icke teaches that this race of out worlders began taking humans as mates and created a hybrid bloodline that would become the heirarchy of the planet's elite known as the Illuminati. Through geneology experiments he has connected an astounding amount of powerful people to this bloodline from Cleopatra to George Bush. It is Icke's (and many others) belief that there is an "Illuminati final solution" that calls for the absolute genocide of over 6 billion people worldwide, leaving a mere 500,000 human beings left alive in order to create a more sustainable and easily controlled planet. This theory (called agenda 21) was all but confirmed in a speech given by former president Clinton when he announced the creation of the presidents council for a sustainable future. Icke also teaches that all the human being can process visually is luminescant light or objects that refract light and that we live in a universe where 90% of all matter in non-luminescant or invisible to the human eye. He contests that it is within this anti-matter that the forces controlling our world reside. No matter wether you believe in the history he teaches or not, the one thing that the man teaches more than anything is unconditional love for all existence within the infinite conciousness and the constant growth and evolution of the mortal mind. That'a a lesson best learned by all, believers or not. His legend has grown ten fold with the accurate predictions of 9/11, the war in the middle east and many more along with an incredibly succesful line of books available on-line and in some select libraries. In essence, the teachings of Icke are "take what you want and leave the rest" pieces of knowledge but there is absolutely no doubt that this is a man worth listening to.

The Window

It occurs to me that even though there are entire sciences devoted to it, the act of dreaming has never been properly explained in my opinion. Traditional scientists, psycho-analysts and therapists would say that dreams are merely our subconcious minds translating and processing our daily lives but why then are our dreams so hard to translate back into the actions or events that preceeded them. The epiphany that I had while pondering this question goes as such, dreams are not simply our inner mind revisioning life on this plain but rather us actually seeing through a dimensional window into alternate realities. As a student of the universal conciousness I study the belief that existence is infinite and that everything is not only possible but plausible for there are dimensions and realities for every imaginable situation. Now imagine that when we fall asleep our third eye becomes intensified because of the lack of distraction and a "window" between dimensions is opened. We are able to witness ourselves in different lives and existences without actually being able to physically interfere. This is why I believe people can have dreams about events and people that are completely unfamiliar and yet wake feeling as though what they had seen was entirely true. This is why I call dreaming the window. It is a grave mistake to attach small explanations to universal questions. It serves people nothing to try to decide for yourself what they are capable of understanding instead of offering them an answer that may or may not be beyond them. This is just the theory of a dreamer.

Welcome to my world

Aloha y'all, I'd like to thank you for venturing into my blog zone. The opinions and views that you find here will be controversial, thought provoking and hopefully on occasion, offensive to your sensibilities. I choose to think outside of the box and strive for universal understanding as opposed to human logic. In my world there is no life or death, just infinite transitional energies that collect and share information with each other as our paths cross. Examine the content you find here carefully and disregard the programming that you have been subjected to. They say a mind is like a parachute, it only works if it's open. Welcome to my world.